I ran a company for ten years, got married, got a dog (already had two cats), had two kids, moved to a bigger house, got involved a bit with my girls’ school, joined the Board of Entrepreneur’s Organization (EO), tried to be a good daughter, mother, sister, and friend. According to my friends and family, I was over-committed.
I finally decided to close my company last summer, and wound it down for the remaining six months of last year. The first week that I didn’t go to the office every day was just plain weird. I sort of wandered around not knowing what to do with myself. I created a list of all the projects at home that I had been putting off, and all of the errands I never get to. I got stuff done and still felt like I was meandering through my day. It didn’t feel good; in fact, it felt stressful because I had lost my sense of purpose.
It took about a month to get used to the fact that I actually had time to exercise again, spend time with my children, get stuff done, and even spend time on some of my own hobbies. It was this process that lead me to pursuing photography professionally, and going to school at Boston University’s Center for Digital Imaging Arts. It also lead me to tryout to be a ski instructor part-time at our local ski area, Blue Hills.
So, eight months after the decision to close Zoe Foods, I am in school part-time (6 to 14 hours/week), work at Blue Hills for 10 hours/week (although the season is coming to a close), volunteer at my children’s school to help with the auction and other planning activities, continue to participate on the Board of EO, and of course, spend time with my family and friends.
I’m run down, I’ve been battling a cold on and off for the last six weeks, I’m tired, and in my spacey exhaustion and effort to relax, have become addicted to watching Grey’s Anatomy.
Bottom line, it didn’t take me long to become over-committed again. This time I can’t blame it on the company that I started that I claimed took on a life of its own. This time I can only blame it on myself. I’ve been told that recognizing the problem is the start to fixing it. Now it’s time to try a new path, I’ll keep you posted…
Mompreneur Musings & The Quest For Balance talks about the challenges I faced while running Zoe Foods for 10 years, and my current search for a new career that will also allow me the time to focus on being a mom to two little girls, a wife, a friend, and a daughter. I am trying to create more balance in my life, knowing now that balance among career, family, and self occurs over one’s lifetime rather than in each day. Please join me on my journey and share your own experiences.
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